Beautiful quote

"This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life."

If we were to go separate ways one day, not keeping in contact anymore, I pray that you have all these. Thank you for being a big part of me once upon a time. There will always be a little of you in me.

Eventful weekend

March has not started off well.. Over the weekend I've lost my laptop. It was my first day working in the clinic and the data is stored in my laptop. My camera's memory card is inside as well. Together with the laptop, all these were lost. Serene was feeling very guilty and shaken by the incident. If I had not been as calm, the tension will be even more intense. Thank God for keeping me calm and thinking for solutions right there and then. Reported the lost lappy to Forever21, the control station as well as made a police report so as to gain authority to view the CCTV footage. Was feeling kinda distraught from the sudden loss as I didn't see it coming at all, moreover since I seldom bring it out knowing myself to be so forgetful. But it's no one's fault. After that baby doll and I still managed to watch a movie! Kudos to us haha! We watched Ghost Rider, but it was only so-so to me, the graphics were a tad too fake. I slept over at hers after that with intention of meeting M the next day but things didn't go as planned. Oh well. So bbydoll and I went to IMM instead. My old habit kicked in that day and I sinned. So ashamed of myself and regretted what I did terribly. Will never do it again. Ever. I suck at it anyway. >< Then good news came! A guy called to say that his mum found my laptop and brought it home for him to figure out how to return it! At that point in time, I felt utter disgrace because of my bad deed and at the same time really really thankful that there are still kind souls in this world! I have sort of accepted the fact that I'll never get it back again cos what are the chances really, right? Even the police said it was impossible! I prayed. Asked for forgiveness that I am such a terrible person and gave thanks for the kindness shown to me that I don't deserve at all. Bbydoll and I made a pact to go to church next week. It was a promise to God if we found the laptop. Many times I've prayed and promised the exact same thing. But going back to church intimidates me after backsliding for so long. Yet at the same time I'm so guilty. I really want to go for service this week. Note to self: Please stop procrastinating!! Bad luck continued as I was down with a case of food poisoning. The vomiting and diarrhea got me so tired and dehydrated! Couldn't go to work just when I really need to work badly! Talk about timely )))): Have been overspending wayyyyyy too much this weekend. In one weekend, I spent $700+! Hate myself for not being able to control the shopping addiction sometimes )': Sulking at home not being able to eat any proper food now ):

But life is fair, with bad news comes good news too! Time for Lady Luck to shine on me after all the bad stuff! (: Other than the lost-and-found lappy, I befriended a cutie! Through Jolene, a new friend I made during the MBS event! He's a Virgo too. Guess I really have a thing for Virgos. OH MAN WHY!?!?! LOL. Virgos and Geminis are not exactly a good match but I just have a thing for them -.- Moreover, past experiences with Virgos didn't end off well. So why do I always find them a bit cuter than the rest?! Do not understand it at all. But he's been really nice! We've been texting and all and we are gonna go out probably next week! (: Looking forward to it. But I'm gonna take things slow. There was an astrology booth at the MBS event and all the girls had our astrology read. So the astrologist actually said that I fall in love too fast, believing in the love at first sight theory. SO TRUE! I'm a hopeless romantic and the problem is that I always fall for the wrong type. Sighs. I am gonna stick to my new year resolution for a change till I meet the next better one! (:

Nysha and Steph texted me about the laptop and I felt so loved. Although we don't see each other everyday like we used to in school, I know you girls genuinely care. A text is a small gesture but it goes to show your concern (: I miss my girls so so much.. Feels weird not seeing them for a while. Shall plan a meetup real soon! (: Despite everything, I feel so lucky to have awesome people around me. People who are in my life right now, those who came and went, those who will be entering it. Thank you for all the love and care all of you shower on me! And of course, for God. Thank you for bringing me up in awe of You. Thank you for making me Daddy's daughter. His faith in You touches me. Thank you for being forgiving. Forgiving all my sins and always giving me endless opportunities to be a better person, a better child of yours. Thank you for everything, all the bad stuff for me to learn from and all the good ones that I don't deserve.

With faith, hope and endless love, J